• Jorge the Shadow Seller: The Search for What Truly Matters

    THE LATE AFTERNOON SUN WAS BLAZING DOWN ON THE BEACH AT SISAL. WE ARRIVED, READY TO ESCAPE THE HEAT BETWEEN THE SEA AND SOME SHADE WHERE WE COULD WAIT OUT THE DAY UNTIL SUNSET. LUCKILY, WE SPOTTED A FEW BEAUTIFUL PALAPAS WITH HAMMOCKS ON THE BEACH. WE AGREED ON A PRICE WITH A WOMAN IN CHARGE AND SETTLED IN, LOOKING FORWARD TO ENJOYING SISAL. THAT’S WHEN I MET JORGE, THE REAL ‘SHADOW SELLER.’ AND HE DIDN’T LOOK PLEASED.

    Our interaction didn’t start smoothly. From where I sat, I saw a man approaching—grey-streaked hair, somewhat weathered by the sun, with dark eyes, probably in his fifties. This was Jorge, the owner of the palapas. He approached with a wary expression. Seeing him come over like that, I thought, “Well, there goes our idea of enjoying the beach and the sea breeze in a shaded hammock. Forget it.” There had been a misunderstanding about the price of the shade and the hammock. His colleague hadn’t told him we’d already agreed on a cheaper rate, and he assumed we were unwilling to pay what was owed. Jorge seemed ready for a confrontation.

    But amid the tension, something shifted. As if we had silently agreed, Jorge and I looked each other in the eyes, and we just listened to one another. This made the initial tension melt away. After speaking with his colleague, Jorge realised there had been a misunderstanding. He returned to me with a genuine (very white) smile and a sincere apology. “Please, relax and enjoy your day.”

    Jorge’s Story

    That’s when Jorge shared something that deeply resonated with me. His eyes, now more at ease, revealed a sense of authenticity. He explained that he had spent much of his youth driven by necessity, chasing money. He recalled a period in the United States working in renowned restaurants, where he earned good money… but was consumed by loneliness. “I worked a lot, earned well, and drank even more,” he said. “I spent years chasing jobs that left me feeling empty until I decided to change my life.”

    Now, here in Sisal, he rents out palapas and hammocks, and takes on other small jobs. He surely isn’t the richest man, but he’s gradually finding what he calls ‘his peace.’

    “Now I try to focus on what really matters,” he told me with a calmness that contrasted with the earlier tension. “After so much chasing, I realised that what I had been searching for wasn’t money. It was to live truly. It’s not always easy because, of course, living with limited money can be frustrating. And sometimes, my ego takes over—the attachment to material things… Then I realise it’s the fear of losing something I don’t even have. And that what really matters to me is living authentically. That’s when I remember I’m already doing it.”

    Jorge’s Life Force: The Power of Authenticity

    Though his eyes still reflected traces of unease when talking about his fears, they were warm and honest. Jorge, with his humbleness and integrity, reminded me that it’s often in the simplest things where we find what truly matters. Thanks to his sincerity, he had the power to turn what could have been a conflict into a memorable conversation for me.

    That day on the beach, I saw the example of a humble man, driven by the life force of wanting to live authentically.


    Have you ever chased a dream that wasn’t yours? Have you asked yourself if you truly have what is valuable to you?
    Share your thoughts in the comments.


    Do you not recognize this Life Force in your own story, or do you feel like you have lost yours?

    Tell me. I am a message away.


    Life Force Stories | Part 3

    Credits: Pictures from my own files | Illustration ‘Jorge in Sisal’ generated with AI, based on my own pictures.

  • Ambar Adela: The power of the heart

    IT’S A WARM DAY IN AUGUST. LUNA AND I ARE WALKING THROUGH THE MAZE OF THE SANTO DOMINGO ARTISAN MARKET. A BIT DIZZY FROM THE HEAT AND THE COLORS (AND ME FROM ANEMIA), WE STOP TO LOOK AT SOME QUARTZ BRACELETS AT ONE OF THE COLOR-PACKED STALLS. THE BRACELET I WANT TO BUY FOR LUNA IS A BIT TOO BIG. “IF SHE LIKES IT, I CAN ADJUST IT TO HER SIZE,” SAYS A SOFT VOICE. FIVE SECONDS LATER, I’M STANDING IN FRONT OF A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN WITH INDIGENOUS FEATURES, HER FACE PERFECTLY MADE UP AND A BIG SMILE WITH DIMPLES. HER NAME IS ADELA, THE OWNER OF THE STALL, WITH HER OWN JEWELRY BRAND, “ÁMBAR ADELA.” HER VOICE IS OFTEN INTERRUPTED BY A CONTAGIOUS LAUGH. FOR EXAMPLE, WHEN SHE SEES MY SURPRISE AS SHE EXPLAINS THAT SHE ALSO DESIGNS THE EMBROIDERED CLOTHING SHE SELLS. AT THAT MOMENT, I TAKE A CLOSER LOOK AT THE MERCHANDISE AROUND ME: EMBROIDERED CLOTHING, SILVER JEWELRY, AND SEMI-PRECIOUS STONES, ALONG WITH AMBER PIECES. “I CAN’T BELIEVE IT! HOW DO YOU FIND THE TIME?” I ASK, AMAZED. – SHE LAUGHS AGAIN. – “WHY WOULDN’T YOU BELIEVE ME? WHEN YOU DO THINGS WITH LOVE, IT DOESN’T MATTER HOW SMALL THEY ARE. THEY ALWAYS TURN OUT WELL. STEP BY STEP.” AND THAT’S HOW WE BEGIN A CONVERSATION THAT FILLS ME WITH ADMIRATION.

    Adela’s story

    Adela comes from the Tzotzil community in a nearby village. Her mother taught her to embroider when she was a child. She married very young and had three daughters, who are now young adults. When she tells me her age (she’s only six years younger than me, though she looks at least ten years younger), I almost fall over.

    “What?! Forty-seven years old?! I don’t believe it,” I exclaim.

    Her laughter jingles again.
    “You don’t believe anything I say!” But when your spirit is well, and you do things with love, your body reflects that.”

    She tells me that she divorced her daughters’ father long ago. It must have been a difficult time, but I see no trace of bitterness or resentment on her face. Instead, there’s a serene joy.

    “Look at me. I live better this way. Things have gone well for me,” she says, the dimples in her smile reappearing. “I got divorced because I couldn’t rely on him anyway. Once I became independent, I had to decide how to move forward and support my daughters and myself.”

    “When your spirit is well, and you do things with love, your body reflects that”

    Adela Gómez

    From embroidery to beads

    That’s when I remembered my mother’s embroidery. I started by embroidering blouses to sell at the market, with things I love: flowers, fruits, and birds. My style of embroidery sold well. So, I began to embroider other garments, not just traditional ones, but also jeans, jackets, blazers—everything. One thing worth the mention: I only made things I enjoyed creating.

    I’ve always liked accessories, so when I could save a bit of money, I bought some beads and stones and started making small bracelets, earrings, little things. Those sold well, too. Over the years, my stall grew, and I was able to get a small shop here in Santo Domingo. My daughters also grew up; they had their own responsibilities by then. But between them, they helped me formalize my designs into a brand, “Ámbar Adela.” They created the labels for several lines, and well… here we are,” she finishes with a smile.

    Life Force

    I listen in admiration, especially because I know firsthand how hard it is to build a jewelry brand—it’s no easy task. I tell her that years ago, I had my own brand, “Luna de Plata,” and that I gave it up when it was almost fully formed.

    “Why?” she asks.

    With some embarrassment, I admit,
    Lack of experience, but mostly fear. Fear of failing.”

    Seeing Adela standing there so calm and full of confidence, surrounded by her creations, I rush to tell her that only now, years later, I understand that I can do whatever I set my mind to. That only now do I feel the confidence to face my fears head-on. I tell her I’m surviving cancer and that I’m filled with plans that feel very real to me: this trip through Mexico, my therapy practice, my communication work to support other cancer patients, and the psychology studies I will begin this year.

    She says, “Everything will work out for you, I know it. The things done with love, with motivation, step by step, always turn out well. Because that’s how God works.”

    And the way she says it, I feel a deep certainty in every word. My body vibrates with serene clarity, and in that moment, I understand that she is driven by the Life Force.


    Adela and her unbreakable spirit

    Adela shows that Life Force is not just about carrying on when everything is against you. It’s about finding joy in the small things, feeling love in everything you do. It’s knowing that no matter what happens, you always have the strength within you to start again.

    Her story is not just one of courage but a tribute to the strength of the heart. And so, she continues, with a smile and unstoppable energy, her hands never ceasing to create, her heart always open to her family and her customers. She is living proof of the power of the heart, of love for family, and of the unbreakable spirit of a woman determined to love life no matter what.


    How many times have you had to start again? Which are the little things that bring you joy?
    Share your thoughts in the comments.


    Do you not recognize this Life Force in your own story, or do you feel like you have lost yours?

    Let me know, I am a message away


    Life Force Stories | Part 2

    Credits: Pictures from Adela Gómez Facebook page | Picture ‘Santo Domingo Market’ generated with AI, based on my own original photo’s.

  • Life Force: connected stories

    THERE’S A THREAD THAT RUNS THROUGH ALL OF US—A VITAL FORCE, UNSEEN YET DEEPLY FELT. I CALL IT LIFE FORCE. IT’S THE ENERGY THAT PUSHES US TO RISE AFTER WE’VE FALLEN, TO CREATE BEAUTY FROM PAIN, AND TO FACE EACH NEW DAY WITH PURPOSE, NO MATTER THE CHALLENGES. LIFE FORCE HAS ALWAYS BEEN CENTRAL TO MY JOURNEY AS A THERAPIST, AND AS A CANCER SURVIVOR, IT HAS BECOME MY COMPASS THROUGH BOTH DARK AND LIGHT.

    The connecting journey

    During my journey through México last summer, I met many different people. I enjoyed every conversation with them, but some stayed with me. The energy of these people struck me in the most positive way. We connected on an energetic level. I noticed that they are driven by this universal force that I call Life Force. It may sound vague, but for me, it couldn’t be more concrete—both in my journey through cancer treatment and in my work as a therapist. I see it every day. Travelling through México, I was thrilled to recognize it in other people’s lives too. It’s this driving energy, this connection, that I find so awe-inspiring. And it’s what motivates me to share their stories with you.

    The Stories

    So, back home, I began writing. These are not success stories. They are everyday life stories of people like you and me. Let me introduce you to these men and women. On the surface, they seem completely different from one another. They come from different places, social statuses, genders, professions, and experiences. Some have dealt with illness or loss, while others have faced challenges in their careers, relationships, or personal growth. Others simply lead peaceful lives. Yet, they all have one powerful thing in common: Life Force. That’s the thread that runs through their stories.

    Through these stories, you’ll see how this invisible energy manifests in different ways. It’s in the mother who built a business after a divorce, the artist who finds new meaning in his family legacy, and the survivor who, against all odds, chooses to love life over fear. These stories are not just tales of survival but of living—with passion, purpose, and heart.

    Why Now?

    Sharing these stories is part of my mission to celebrate and ignite the Life Force within us all. Whether you’re navigating a tough time or looking for inspiration, I hope these stories will resonate deeply with you. Because I believe, at the core, we all have Life Force within us—it’s just waiting to be harnessed.

    Welcome to the Life Force series. Let’s embark on this journey together, step by step, story by story.

    Check out the Life Force Stories:
    Ambar Adela: The power of the heart
    Omar Fabián: A heart driven by creativity and legacy
    Jorge the Shadow Seller: The search for what truly matters


    Share what Life Force means to you in the comments. Do you not recognize it, or feel that you have lost yours? Let me know, I am a message away!

  • Uiterlijk

    JE STAAT VOLOP IN HET LEVEN ALS VROUW, MOEDER, PERSOON. ALS JE DAN GECONFRONTEERD WORDT MET JE EIGEN DOODVONNIS, ZIJN ALLE MATERIËLE ZAKEN VAN EEN ONDERGESCHIKTE RANGORDE, OF HELEMAAL NIET RELEVANT. EN ALS JE DAN PERSPECTIEF KRIJGT OP (LANGER) LEVEN MET BEHOUD VAN KWALITEIT, GRIJP JE DIE KANS MET BEIDE HANDEN AAN. JE GAAT EEN NIEUWE FASE IN. JE KOMT ER VERANDERD UIT, INNERLIJK EN UITERLIJK. EN IS NU UITERLIJK NOG STEEDS BELANGRIJK? HOE BELANGRIJK? JE MERKT DAT ER TELKENS TWEE ANTWOORDEN ZIJN, DIE NAAST ELKAAR BESTAAN. DIT IS HOE MIJN UITERLIJK VERANDERD IS, EN WAT HET MET ME DOET.

    Spiegeltje, spiegeltje aan de wand…

    Zes chemo’s, een grote buikoperatie (debulking en HIPEC), doelgerichte therapie om de resterende slapende kankercellen te deactiveren, beide borsten geamputeerd. Ik ben er nog.
    Ik sta voor de spiegel, ik kijk mijzelf met wijde ogen aan. En dit is wat ik zie, hoor, denk…

    Mijn hand lijkt wel een handschoen! Geen ring pastWow! Een garen rijgen én zeer gedetailleerd tekenen lukt me nog op mijn 48e
    Jee wat een stomme krullen, ik kan er niks mee 🤯Krulletjes zijn leuk met een haarbandje! Nieuwe zomer kapsel 🌞
    Wat groeit mijn haar langzaaaaaaaaaaaamLekker veel haar teruggekregen
    Pfff wat een rimpels, het gaat nu zó hard met die menopauze Ik hou van mijn getinte huid, lekker zomers het hele jaar door 
    Kromme chemo-teennagels 😟Ik trek een paar mooie hakjes aan, en toe maar! Ik kan weer dansen 💃
    Hobbitvoeten heb ik gekregen!!!Lekker lang wandelen door de klompen paden 
    Platte borst en korte kop, ik lijk wel een vent!Platte borst staat mijn eigenlijk goed, ik heb een rankere silhouet in mijn strakke topjes 
    Kuilen en littekens in plaats van borsten Een nieuw begin, ik ben benieuwd hoe mijn nieuwe borsten worden 
    Goh geen borsten is echt platLekker een strapless topje aan, het past!!
    Mijn voorkant lijkt wel een slagveld!Tja de boel is kankervrij
    Een jaap van mijn hart tot mijn onderbuik, nog scheef ook…Mooie plek om een Levensboom te laten tatoeëren, als symbool 
    Grote littekens en verminkingStaat wel stoer… I’m a badass! 😎
    Pff ik lijk wel een oudwijfWat een stoer wijf
    Je…tje hoe moet ik me ooit weer sexy voelen???Hmmm, wie weet hoe het wordt met nieuwe borsten en stoere tattoos… 👯‍♀️

    Zie? Twee gedachten tegelijk, twee antwoorden tegelijk. Beetje hysterisch wellicht, en allemaal waar. Geen kant is zwaarder, beide zijn waar, heel reëel voor mij.

    Is uiterlijk belangrijk of een oppervlakkige zaak?

    Neem nou deze gedachte: Als je me nu een contract zou geven met daarin de garantie dat de kanker weg is en wegblijft; maar als voorwaarde ben ik wel kaal, plat en vertekend voor de rest van mijn leven, dan teken ik meteen. Zonder twijfel. Dus ja, hoe belangrijk is uiterlijk?

    Tja, niet belangrijker dan mijn leven, en toch belangrijker dan ik had gedacht in eerste instantie. Kanker, leven met kanker, leven na kanker is een metamorfose. Uiterlijk is deel van mijn identiteit, van mijn zelfbeeld. Dat is veranderd en het gaat nog meer veranderen. 

    Ik blijf nieuwsgierig kijken. Af en toe veeg ik een traan, en soms word ik verrast door iets leuks. Ik denk dat het bij het proces hoort van acceptatie en wederopbouw. Althans, voor mij is het zo.

    Ik blijf in ieder geval nieuwsgierig kijken, maar bovenal vervuld met bewondering voor mijn lichaam, haar kracht, haar capaciteit om te transformeren. Alsof het universum daarin schuilt.